Life in general

Life right now is more than boring... it's blah...

I've started taking my CNA certification class through the state of TN. I'm originally a CNA in the state of NC. I moved here in May of last year and discovered that my certification would not transfer. BITCHES...

So, now my daily schedule consists of going to work from 8:00 to 4:30 and then going to class EVERYDAY from 5:00 to 9:30. By the time that I get home I am so freakin tired it's not even funny. I feel every bit of my personal life going right out the window.

I have hardly anytime to spend with my BF. He's starting to wonder what I look like. I have no time to concentrate on my normal studies, and what's even worse, my spiritual life seems to be dwindling... I find myself looking more and more forward to Sundays just so that I can go to church. Not that I didn't like going before, it's just I find going to church even more special now.

There are some things that are looking up for me though. After I complete this CNA course I can get a job with the hospital, WHICH I WOULD LOVE TO DO, and get back to working on the night shifts... I miss night shift. I HATE DAY SHIFT. After I do get back onto night shift I can go to school during the day and take more classes... YEAH!!! For those of you who don't know I'm going to nursing school...

Then there's the exciting news that I'm going to be starting Music lessons at the end of the summer with a very nice lady. She's going to help me get used to reading music again. After that I hope to join the Church orchestra... So...

Anywho... It's off to class with me now...

thoughts for today...

Ya know, I've been thinking about an issue for quite some time... Actually I started thinking about it several months ago, and you know how you'll think and think about something and then forget about it only to have it to return to you several months down the road... well that's the issue with this.

As I said, several months ago the issue of Homosexual Adoption popped into my head and I began to find myself worried about it. My partner Josh and I have only been together for a year and aren't thinking about either adoption or surrogacy until after we both have completed school, but I found myself to be utterly horrified by the thought. Several concerns where,

Will my child be made fun of?
Will my child be accepted by my family?
Will my child love me and my partner? Or will they feel that they'd been cheated?

Several other questions came to light, just one right after the other, but then it went away... NOW IT'S BACK!

There's not much information on the Internet as far as I can see. I don't know any other gay couples who have children so that I could discuss with them their experiences... So Hey... why not blog about it... there's got to be someone with insight on the subject....